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We Own The Sky

there is barely anything there, but soon there will be.

*waves hello*

I called in sick today to Your Local Inspirational Bookstore. I had a fever when I woke up and an obnoxious cold I've been dealing with moved into my chest making me cough up nasty stuff all day.

Hmmm...

Well, I wanted to check in and write about how normal I feel right now. A year ago I was hardly able to eat, I reached out to people in desperation--I was miserable. Even though I may not be bouncing off the walls happy all the time. I feel more consistently happy with where I am now and who I am.

My relationship with my parents still has some rough patches, but I talk to my mom nearly every single day. They know I care for them and they also know I want our relationship to continue to get better.

When I came out, I could only view myself as someone who is gay and mormon. Now I am ME. I am grateful for the opportunity to feel comfortable in my own skin, also for the fact that being gay isn't something that is incredibly overwhelming.

I also want to write about a certain someone I've gone on a few dates with recently, but I figure things are too early to introduce someone as a character on my blog, and I don't want to make a fool of myself by writing stupid gushy gross things.

I guess there's not much else to say except just reiterating the fact that even though I am not always smiling, I feel happy, I feel normal, I feel like I am myself.

So, whoever was the anonymous comments on my blog the last two days, would you please email me @ attemptingthepath(at)gmail(dot)com I would love have a private discussion on the matter, and since your commented anonymously, I have no other option than say something like this on my blog.

thanks.

The heart breaks and breaks and lives by breaking. It is necessary to go dark and deeper dark and not to turn.

--Stanley Kunitz

Just sort of down tonight. Things are going so well, sometimes life is just lame.

I am obsessed...

with Tegan and Sara, my old best friend Suzie and her friend Meg, staying up late and smiling. Today sucked, but ended well. I went to wal-mart in American Fork and bought some candy, new razor blades, and a new toothbrush.

I'm also obsessed with asofterworld comics. they bring me such joy. ...

5 years

Today marks the 5th anniversary of the death of my oldest brother
Today marks the 4th anniversary of my grandfather passing away, it's also been 4 years since I lost the hearing in one of my ears.

I know it's late and I shouldn't be thinking but I feel robbed. There are also a few people I want to say, "fuck you" to, well... I guess that'd be repetitive since I already did that earlier today.

In other news, I'm making more friends, my therapist is pleased with that. Bad news is that I'm already sabotaging some of those friendships. Well... you win some, lose some I guess.