Thursday, April 24, 2008

*waves hello*

I called in sick today to Your Local Inspirational Bookstore. I had a fever when I woke up and an obnoxious cold I've been dealing with moved into my chest making me cough up nasty stuff all day.

Hmmm...

Well, I wanted to check in and write about how normal I feel right now. A year ago I was hardly able to eat, I reached out to people in desperation--I was miserable. Even though I may not be bouncing off the walls happy all the time. I feel more consistently happy with where I am now and who I am.

My relationship with my parents still has some rough patches, but I talk to my mom nearly every single day. They know I care for them and they also know I want our relationship to continue to get better.

When I came out, I could only view myself as someone who is gay and mormon. Now I am ME. I am grateful for the opportunity to feel comfortable in my own skin, also for the fact that being gay isn't something that is incredibly overwhelming.

I also want to write about a certain someone I've gone on a few dates with recently, but I figure things are too early to introduce someone as a character on my blog, and I don't want to make a fool of myself by writing stupid gushy gross things.

I guess there's not much else to say except just reiterating the fact that even though I am not always smiling, I feel happy, I feel normal, I feel like I am myself.

4 comments:

Potentate said...

You make me smile. Get well soon, k?

Scott said...

Good for you ATP. I've been worried about your lack of blogging as of late.

salad said...

sorry we didn't come see you on saturday. i spent all day on the couch with something similar to what you described. we need to go to zupas or something. let me know!

Forester said...

Isn't it a great feeling? I too have come into this feeling of self acceptance.