hahahahaha

Okay, so I received a call from my stake president, "The First Presidency let me know that they don't know how to really handle your 'issue.' So they'd like you to get a psychiatric evaluation and then they'll see if they can call you on a mission."

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Come on! How long does it take to get a friggin' mission call?

question of the week: If you had access to the magical pill that would take away your homosexual attractions...would you use it?

still no call, life is great

as always the real updates are on www.xanga.com/attemptingthepath

I think I may go crazy if my mission call doesn't get here anytime soon.

I mean, i've given up acting on my attractions to other guys...shouldn't that mean I don't have to be patient?! haha just kidding...

anyway, have a good one kids

EDIT: My parents are gone again this weekend... WTF? this is the second one in a row and they'll be gone for three more.

Hmmm, I just got a message to call someone in the High Council in my Stake.

I mean, I haven't done anything wrong--other than what every other guy my age goes through. I've worked everything out with my bishop that I need to, we've already had Stake Conference so they won't be calling me to speak, I heard Salt Lake already issued my mission call so everything should be fine there...

what else could it be?

PS I heard Sufjan Stevens' Chicago on the radio today. it made me feel cool

EDIT: Good news. I haven't been excommunicated :-D. Although I'm conducting the music for Seminary Graduation.

I did it. They know.

My mission papers are in.

and I decided that there will be no more lies, no more secrets. By all means I won't be casting my pearls infront of swine, but I am who I am.

YES. I feel so much better about myself.

EDIT: I don't know how long I'm going to stay around Blogger... I love the way the site works but there are a lot of members of "The Family" whose blogs are just rubbing me the wrong way, and that inturn just makes me angry.

If I've commented on your blog, it means you've passed the test. but there are so many out there that are complicating their problems exponentially because they are keeping secrets, not staying focused on Christ, and double guessing everything they know to be true.

I don't mean to write that because I'm stuck up, or delusional when it comes to the church. I write that because what I've experienced, I know that to be true. One last rant... I've read on a few that you have a need to have sexual experiences with men. I'm telling you that is a lie. There are ways you can have that need for intimacy with men satisfied by just communicating with other men.

Ugh, I don't even know where I'm going with this anymore. I'll let everyone know if I stick around blogger. but you can always go to my Xanga blog @ www.xanga.com/attemptingthepath

So, I could use some ideas on how to come out to my parents.

Please, yeah, i could definitely use the help.