Monday, October 01, 2007

All we can do is keep breathing.

I’ve been feeling just a little bit off the past few days. I couldn’t pinpoint it, I didn’t want to say what was causing it because it means

I’m not as emotionally mature as I thought I was. That pisses me off.

Come on, now. This year has been jam-packed craziness for me…literally. I moved out, got in a co-dependent relationship, moved back to P-town, was suicidal, found a more stable environment and I’m slowly figuring out what I want. That sounds like a hell of a lot of stuff to have happen in 10 months. I think I should have been able to move past the “Getting emotionally effed up whenever something totally expected happens” stage of my life. But no.

It took me over a week to realize what was causing me to feel all… off, and now I’m just bugged.

Anyway, I have a few posts I’ve been trying to work on, but I couldn’t. Hopefully now that I’ve sort of started cleaning this up I’ll be able to move on and get something of worth actually posted.


Julie said...

In the immortal words of Dory/Ellen DeGeneres (and no, I can't spell her name to save my life), "Just keep swimming, just keep swimming, just keep swimming."

Sorry, but I couldn't help myself. I know that was a stupid comment. Hang in there. Life gets shitty at times.

Kengo Biddles said...

Great! Now that song's stuck in my head! :-)

"Just keep swimming ... just keep swimming ... just keep swimming, swimming, swimming ... what do we do? we swim, swim..."

Remember that you're young, friend, and remember that even people as ancient and decrepit as me are not very emotionally mature either. And anyone who says they're emotionally mature are probably lying.

agirlwho said...

I felt that you were pulling away, and not just from me. All I can say is what I've said to you so many times, don't try to do it yourself. Rely on the Lord, trust him, and trust good friends that they can help you through tough times. Love you.

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