Monday, June 26, 2006

I want this to just be over.

I feel inadequate, and empty...

ugh maybe I should just dye my hair black and start listening to wicked emo music.

Anyway, I just need to go to bed and let tomorrow be a new day


Samantha said...

Somedays are better than others. Sounds like this wasn't one of the "better" ones. Stay strong--hang in there. Don't give up.

Get some good sleep.

Black might be a good change, but I think it would clash with your eyes. :)

You've given me hugs when I needed them--one for you tonight: *hug*

el veneno said...

Good plan about going to bed. Here's to hoping that tomorrow is better. Still black hair and emo music sounds kind of hot.

Ward Cleaver said...

Don't change a thing!

Chill. are being taught something. Listen carefully to God and Jesus.

Elbow said...

Aghh, I can imagine what you are feeling.

I'm sorry you have to go through all this.

You sound like an amazing person. Keep on being the best that you can, and God will fill in the rest.

Thanks for posting.

epadavito said...

you can't die your hair black in the summer - its just against everything that the fashion gods would want. And its no good to upset them. I was thinking of dying my hair blonde, or give myself some streaks or something - hmmm...

Latin Stud! said...

Hmm U and black hair? that's not a bad idea at all!!! Britney Spears DID IT! LOL..... Blond doesnt sounds bad neither (blond spikes?!)... U would look GOOD on both! oh my! we need to Do something!!! we would have fun at Bon Losee!!haha (sick! how gay does that sound?!!!)

what fashion gods is he talking about?! LOL U need to update me about that!

DUDE.. EMO MUSIC? no no no!!Summer music! Nelly Furtado, Christina Aguilera, Cassie, Dashboard Confessionals, Jessica Simpson, Madonna, Goldfrapp,Red Hot Chilli Pappers, the Fray, Shakira... ohh my... All of them are IN, LISTEN TO HAPPY MUSIC!!! they would make u fell like shaking it! and use all ur latin moves u know!! BE HAPPY!

I guess what I'm trying to say, is that even when things look kinda dark, try to find a bright side to it. Do I look like I need depression pills? haha... Have a happy life! ( i know it's not as easy as it sounds.. but u should find a way) Chin up buddy!!!

I so LUV THIS SONG!!!! SHAKE IT!! (u know it! )

Maneater, make you work hard
Make you spend hard
Make you want all, of her love
She's a maneater
make you buy cars
make you cut cards
make you fall real hard in love
She's a Maneater, make you work hard
Make you spend hard
Make you want all, of her love
She's a maneater
make you buy cars
make you cut cards
Wish you never ever met her at all!



Beck said...

I hate the suspense and agony hanging over your life! I'm so sorry you have to go through this - but I agree that this too can be a great learning experience and some day you truly can look back and see the reasons for things in a much clearer perspective.

Meanwhile, definitely go blond! I wish one day I'd wake up blond!

SkyBluePink said...

If you dye your hair black and start listening to bad emo... crap. I will beat you down. Only because I love you a ton, though.