Thursday, August 31, 2006

Me typing incoherently at 3AM

One of my all time favorite scriptures would have to be Revelations 7:13-17 it reads, “And one of the elders answered, saying unto me, What are these who are arrayed in white robes? And whence came they? And I said unto him, Sir, thou knowest. And he said to me, These are they which came out of great tribulation, and have washed their robes, and made them white in the blood of the Lamb. Therefore are they before the throne of God, and serve him day and night in his temple: and he that sitteth on the throne shall dwell among them. They shall hunger no more, neither thirst anymore…For the Lamb which in the midst of the throne shall feed them, and shall lead them unto living fountains of waters: and God shall wipe all tears from their eyes”

This piece of scripture has been a life preserver for me in times of great pain where I didn’t know where I should turn to for help, for those nights I lay in my bed not wanting to make it through another day, I would repeat the last line of that over and over again in my head until I felt at peace with myself and fall asleep.

I was thinking more about that passage, our relationship with our Christ, and His love for us. The end of the verse states that, “God shall wipe all tears from their eyes,” I don’t know about anyone else, but I’ve never let anyone extend their arm, and with a brush of their thumb wipe a tear from my cheek. Mind you, I’m slightly emotionally barren when it comes to the crying department. But with all of the people that I currently know, I wouldn’t allow them, or they wouldn’t feel comfortable doing that.

I really wish I knew what I was trying to say here….well, I guess that Our God, Our Christ, the One who has provided redemption, loves us, He knows us, and He will be there to comfort us.

Also, at work I read part of a book that goes through, what the author thought, as the meaning of Christ referring Himself to as “The beginning and the end.” This has always confused me, as I’ve just simply brushed it away and chalked it up to His eternal nature. But this author brought up what it means to each and every one of us personally. He is the end of sorrow, pain, grief, loneliness, past hurt, and he is the beginning of peace, life, love, understanding, healing, and joy. He came to bring beauty for ashes.

Remember, God will wipe the tears away from your eyes.

12 comments:

asdf38 said...

man that is deep...I guess some peoples best work is done incoherently...(maybe I should try it...)

Change1996 said...

Especially during the time as I decided to follow Gods path what ever it maybe,yeah I was still somewhat clueless,I felt his mercies for me.
I could tell he loved me. He had answered my fervent prayers(finally) and it felt like he was giving my spirit a mega bear hug. I lved it so much that I had to cry. I knew it was true and I new it was worth it to get baptized and try do do my very best,thus I know he shall brush away our cristal drops and give us a gush of love to replace that emotional sign on our face.
I love God and I know he's there for you. You're a good kid, always tryin' to do your best.

SkyBluePink said...

...but in order for God to take away your tears, you need to cry first.

Dawn said...

I really needed this today. Thanks. I had one of those nights last night.

Elizabeth-W said...

Nice post--we all need that reminder, and to really believe believe believe it for me personally has always been struggle-not that I don't deserve it but that it is so personal for so many, and how is that possible?
As an aside--So guess what I did? I called Evergreen and I'm thinking about getting myself on their list of therapists--but I'm not sure yet. I really need to call them and ask what they would expect me to do.

iovan said...

Just want to thank you for the stories and thoughts on your blog. I guess a missionary's job is to bring people unto Christ - your words strengthened me in my desire to hold on and keep searching for more light. It will be worth it. So thanks!

Meredith said...

wonderful entry... thanks. :)

SkyBluePink said...

I love you...

...but I think I'm going to have to kick your butt tomorrow. *angry face*

Elizabeth-W said...

Thanks for your comment over on my side. I talked to a lady at EG yesterday, and that perspective explains why she said she would only refer me females. I am thinking I'm not 100% sure buy that "treatment" for lack of a better word. I told her I was very comfortable in dealing with 'problem behaviors' but I didn't know that I wanted to help someone (due to my lack of training and confidence in) become heterosexual.

Nectar said...

I have found your blog inspirational and interesting.

I found your blog from a comment you made on someone else's blog. I found their blog from a comment they had made somewhere else.

I only recently became a part of the blogger world. My introduction had its origin in the BYU 100 hour board. I tracked down one of the writers to criticize her, and ended up starting my own blog. Life is strange.

I've always been a very active member of the LDS church. I wouldn't say I struggle with same sex attraction, but for some strange reason I think I understand it quite well. It is always illuminating to read someone else's perception of this facet of their lives.

May the Lord bless you in your righteous struggles.

duckygub said...

wow! what an amazing post. that was some really good stuff there. That scripture is amazing and that part from the book is wow! i had never thought of it that way.

Latin Stud! said...

Im glad ur still "into" reading scriptures... Im going to start doing it again since tomorrow.. ill have my Book of Mormon with me on the flight back to the "holy Land" LOL