Wednesday, October 18, 2006

When I see people crying, I'm insanely jealous.

it's been over three years. I want to cry, I want to let everything out, I want to have someone come hold me when it happens and have them tell me everything will be okay. Is it too much to want to feel sorrow and to let it show? I feel pain, obviously you've read all the angst that goes on in my life, but I can't let it out...it just won't happen.

6 comments:

painted grass said...

i miss you.

Stephanie said...

I'm sorry my friend. I hope you know you can call me if you need anything though. I know you can make it.

epadavito said...

there is nothing wrong with crying - you feel so much better afterward...I love it...well not really...but..yea....remember you're an amazing human being and everybody loves you.....

Julie said...

I've been lurking for a while here, but I had to say something. As one who suffers from clinical depression, I know what it's like to want to cry but not be able to. You feel so numb that you can't "feel" anything, let alone respond the way you want to. I hope the tears come for you soon.

God bless you on your journey. I hope the mission call comes soon. And thanks for your insight. I've learned a lot from you. You seem like an incredible person.

Samantha said...

We can laugh together?

Me too, AtP...I know exactly how you feel...

ben said...

your angst keeps you from being the innocent fetus.
the path we attept is frequented with tears, sometimes often, sometimes rarely, but when the time is ripe they come. you always have your friends- rain or shine.