When I see people crying, I'm insanely jealous.
it's been over three years. I want to cry, I want to let everything out, I want to have someone come hold me when it happens and have them tell me everything will be okay. Is it too much to want to feel sorrow and to let it show? I feel pain, obviously you've read all the angst that goes on in my life, but I can't let it out...it just won't happen.
About Me
- AttemptingthePath
- I’m a twenty-nothing who is trying desperately to figure out my seemingly complicated life that includes being a SSA/Homo/Gay/Whatever Mormon that has pathetically little control over my emotions. By day, I sell priestcrafts (“Have you heard of the new John Bytheway fireside on DVD?” It’s 20% off right now) to old women, who, in fact, think I’m quite endearing and buy four of said DVD. I’m going to pretend that the inverse of the previous statement isn’t necessary because I don’t think it’s any of your business what I do by night. I’ve been described as “adorable, yet offensive,” (OriginalMohomie, 2007) and “Immature.” (Master FOB, numerous occasions) I am still in love with Natalie Portman, hooded-sweatshirts, and quoting movies. And just like my last “about me”, this one is going to peter out at the end. Just … like … now.
5 comments:
I'm sorry my friend. I hope you know you can call me if you need anything though. I know you can make it.
there is nothing wrong with crying - you feel so much better afterward...I love it...well not really...but..yea....remember you're an amazing human being and everybody loves you.....
I've been lurking for a while here, but I had to say something. As one who suffers from clinical depression, I know what it's like to want to cry but not be able to. You feel so numb that you can't "feel" anything, let alone respond the way you want to. I hope the tears come for you soon.
God bless you on your journey. I hope the mission call comes soon. And thanks for your insight. I've learned a lot from you. You seem like an incredible person.
We can laugh together?
Me too, AtP...I know exactly how you feel...
your angst keeps you from being the innocent fetus.
the path we attept is frequented with tears, sometimes often, sometimes rarely, but when the time is ripe they come. you always have your friends- rain or shine.
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