Monday, March 12, 2007

So much shouting, so much laughter part 1

I’ve been a complete and total mess the past week and a half. I’ve been uncontrollably hideous, desperate, lonely, and that horrible feeling of not being able to focus on anything but wanting to jump someone.

Saturday was not a lot of fun for me. I was just in pieces on the inside. I was lazy at work, and afterwards I went down to Provo for Dancesport. Not a good idea for someone who is going through one of those, “I have a crush on every boy!” phases. There were so many attractive guys…or maybe because I just wanted some. Meh. Anyway, I was all torn up about that.

Afterwards I went to see The First Kiss and we talked for a while, I felt a little better. Quoting Drop Dead Gorgeous always does that. But even after our chat I felt like curling up in a little ball and not wanting to move for a while.

…Okay I can’t finish this tonight; my roommate is reading the Book of Mormon oultoud in Korean.


epadavito said...

its too true - going to dance shows/competitions I realized may not be the healthiest thing for me (spiritually) b/c the guys are so hot...sometimes its not fair - because all I do want to do is look into their eyes and/or talk with them..or something....sheesh....this life....I tell ya.

agirlwho said...

Korean... lame. Russian is much cooler. But I haven't ever done that to my roommate. Maybe I should start.

isaac said...

Its amazing AtP because everytime I've seen you around you look so happy. Its amazing how much a person can go through and yet nobody would ever notice. I hope that things go better for you. Things do get better you know. Sometimes it just takes a lot longer than we would like. Just know that there are a lot of people who care about you (yes, that probably sounds funny since we barely know each other but I've heard what your friends say about you). See you around.